TW: mentions of depression.
Pain hurts , that’s not a question. Moments in life where people disappointed is painful and we tend to close off to set lower expectations for others. You start to tell yourself don’t trust anyone , don’t open up to anyone, do not be vulnerable and raw and reveal your true self to others.
I do this . Constantly.
I shut down. I don’t let anyone in and I try to only accept the joyful moments. But life isn’t just about surviving and experiencing the good . There is negative , moments that hurt and teach us to appreciate the good
Today I woke up thinking “be grateful for all of it”, even the shitty moments ? Yes, the shitty moments too.
Then I was reminded of the days I didn’t even feel anything. It’s one of the strangest feelings to not FEEL joy or pain. I struggle with depression, and there are lows that I don’t even feel. It’s a scary feeling and it’s moments that I’ve questioned living but always have reminded myself of the moments i did feel and that it will pass.
It has, and I’m still here today. So today I’m embracing and reminding myself that when I cry , when my heart hurts, when I’m disappointed be grateful because there are days that come I will not even feel this but there will be many more days where I get to experience joy if I find gratitude in the small moments. Even the painful ones.